All the efforts you make to change or “perfect” yourself only deepen your feelings of shame. You are constantly in a state of “I’m not ok, unless....
You may have been battling food and body issues for years! Each new hope and intention to make this effort THE ONE that will work often gets met with a feeling of another failed attempt. Here’s the good news! You CAN find freedom from the hopeless cycle of food and body shame and actually have a healthy relationship with food and your body!
What struck me was the attraction of the warm and creamy texture of this delectable food. It made me think about how often mac and cheese serves the function of a comfort food. The kind that will be soothing, calming, nurturing, and just all around feel good. I also started thinking about the need this type of food meets for anyone indulging for emotional reasons.
As you're learning to take care of yourself and move away from unhealthy behaviors, there can be a strange experienceof "now what?" When you've been used to soothing yourself in whatever problematic ways you have chosen (eating, restricting, shopping, caretaking, etc), leaving those behaviors can leave you feeling like you don't quite know yourself or know what to do with yourself.